When we first moved here, I went a bit garden crazy. Besides bringing back some of the gardens that were a mess, I went ahead and dug out some more dirt, added lots of perennials and then watched them grow. Digging was fun and creative and hard work. It's easy to dig a garden. Not exactly easy but good hard work. Taking a space in the yard, thinking about the sunlight, the terrain, what it could be. Now that is really fun, isn't it? Think, think, think about the possibilities of a beautiful garden full of flowers and greenery.
Taking the step to actually do it isn't too hard, considering you are physically capable. Muscle building, yes - all that digging and not being able to move the next day. Adding compost, picking plants, dreaming and then doing. It's all good. And then life gets in the way and you realized you have created all this extra work for yourself taking care of new gardens, weeding, maintaining. Yikes! What was I thinking. That's about where I was three years ago after establishing a bunch of new perennial beds.
New things came up...... the sunflower field, the farmer's markets, the sheep and lamb meat biz, the studio renovation, the farm classes. I decided to let it all go back to whatever it wanted to be. I just couldn't do it all. Not enough time in the day and I had lost interest and went onto other things. Guilt? Maybe a tad bit but I got over it quickly. When I saw this lone allium poking its head up amongst the overgrown grass....
.....I thought back to what I had built and then let go. It's okay I decided some time ago. Sometimes you just have to let go, not feel the pressure to keep it all going. And that's where I am today.... doing what I can, not having it all perfect. (Let's just say far from perfect!) I have been reading and enjoying a book by Joan Dye Gussow called Growing, Older. Heard about her via and article in the NYT a bit ago. Check it out along with her other classic This Organic Life: Confessions of a Suburban Gardener which I have on my to read list for this summer. My mom is reading Gardening for a Lifetime by Sydney Eddison, another book I want to read when I'm not outside this summer. My friend Gwen alerted me to it and Mom is loving it.
Short week everyone - make it a good one!